Simplicity

So lately with everything that has happened this year, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and I only came up with one conclusion. People have always told me this but now I believe it more then anything. Simply, that everything happens for a reason. There is a balance to all and everything is connected. You learn from the experiences that you go through, good and bad. And what you do with that knowledge in turn shapes the person you become. What you do with the situations you are given, all the crap that life throws at you and how you handle different aspects of your life. Whether it be love, loss, grieving, happiness, sadness, friendship, loneliness, freedom, new experiences; pretty much anything at all.

I never wanted to move away from San Jose, and I still wish that I could go back everyday. But in a weird way, I’m so grateful for the time that I spent here in Grizzly Flats, Placerville, El Dorado, Tahoe etc. The people I met, the best friends I made, and the ones that made impacts on my life also made me the person I am today. And I’m truly blessed for that.

What made me start thinking of this was Mike. All I’ve been able to ask is “why”. And the farther back I started thinking, the more I realized that all the big life lessons I’ve learned in the past 3 years are all connected. I'm not saying that I won’t learn more in the future, but I’ve definitely learned a lot in the past couple years. Without the moving here, I wouldn’t have met Caitie, and Forrest. They taught me that you can’t take friendship for granted no matter what. I also met Dustin in the first year of moving here. He taught me to love someone more then myself, and to let go of that love. He also helped me realize that people/things change and good things don’t often last. Without Caitie, Nicole and I would have never become best friends. Nicole helped me through so much my junior/senior year and I have no doubts in the years to come. Without Nicole moving I would have never become so close with Tayler. Tayler is unbelievable, she has been my back bone this whole year. Without breaking up with Dustin, I would have never gotten so close to Mike. Mike taught me that life is precious; you should always live as if it’s your last day. You should have as much fun as possible and do the things you want to, even if they don’t make sense. Just do it because you can. He also taught me the indescribable sadness of death. Losing someone that close to you, forever.

This kind of just helped me to realize that in the event of losing Mike, that as sad as it is, it was meant to happen. He had a purpose, a reason, and he fulfilled that. He brightened everyone’s lives that met him and I’m so grateful to have gotten so close to him.

“Each affects another and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one.”

This is just a lot of thoughts put together so…yea haha.